sherinahime

I've only been in the HSJ fandom for a couple of months but I already know that in the international category of said fandom, there is a shortage in translation a.k.a subbers/translators :<
I say this because, as a dedicated member of a kpop fandom for 6 years now, namely SHINee World, I can make the comparison that there, everything and i mean everything is subbed/translated for the consumption of shawols around the world. Therefore, those of us that do not understand korean, still know of SHINee's schedules/interviews/show guestings and many others just hours after their releases. We're still very active in the fandom as if we're in S.Korea too! :D

Of course, i am not looking down on the jpop fandom. No way! A lot of other jpop groups get as much translations as SHINee too.
This observation of mine is limited to the international HSJ fandom which is the only one i'm in right now.

Maybe it has something to do with super strict copyright laws in japan?
Maybe it has something to do with the fandom being a tad bit too exclusive?
Maybe there really is just a lack of willing souls to do it?
I DONT KNOW.

I really don't know.

... and no one is at fault.
Not the company, not the boys, not the fandom.
NO ONE.

That is why I really, sincerely look up to the senpai who work so hard to sub and/or translate materials related to our boys simply to help spread more HSJ to their fellow tobikkos who do not understand japanese. Hontouni sonkeishiteimasu!
To offer your time and effort for something that contributes to the international promotion of your idols, it's too amazing. beyond words. Truly!
Thank you! Thank you very much!

When I see subbers or communities desperate for helpers, I cant help but feel sad that theyre so under-staffed :(
I get anxious that if they don't get enough help, they may decide to stop subbing because they don't have the motivation anymore or they just can't handle it anymore. We all have our personal lives to consider as well so I can't really blame them if they do either.. *sigh* too sad T^T

Personally, due to my earlier mentioned shortage of international-consummable HSJ material, I would LOVE to offer help to the HSJ fandom. If it would help spread awareness of HSJ to the world, I'd be honored to!
But what do i do? My japanese is limited to otaku and jpop fangirl level. I have ZERO experience translating, much less subbing OTL
My fangirl experience is only limited to photo edits, GIFs, and fanfics ;A; ... so i know i wont be of any help to the subber/translator senpais.
My PC just recently broke down too so I cant download software to practice with. x(
Plus! I don't have the confidence to just chat up the veteran senpais and offer my meager help ;A;

I'm so useless, its frustrating! (>A<)

*sigh*
being a newbie fangirl to an almost 10-year-old group is hard ... (>M<)
first of all, gathering info takes massive time and internet browsing skills lol ... but that's the easy part.

What pricks my heart are the many gossip/scandal articles that appear on my searches from time to time.
Well, I kind of expected it since they are a long-running group and the entertainment industry is just crawling with things like that but ... *sigh* ... i just couldn't stop myself from being a little upset and disappointed at them ... even if they happened years or months ago. :( i'm sorry for being that kind of tobikko. But really, it's my true feelings. I can't change them no matter what i do.

I wont be mentioning which HSJ members' articles i've read/seen because it just adds to my pain to remember them ... but i will say that i am trying my best to move on from them. Cleared up or not, True or not, I am here for HSJ and will continue to get to know them more and more and love them more and more :) because that's what i promised them when i declared myself a tobikko.

<3
Sorry for the slight rant. Its just ... *sigh*